AngelicLucesita
10-24-2006, 12:00 PM
*just a letter I felt like writing to mark my 23rd birthday today*
Dear Amida Buddha,
I thank you for the gifts you brought to me in my life, unexpectedly. I thank you for watching over my family members and friends. I thank you for helping me cope with my recent deaths of loved ones. You've nurtured me and watched over me, but I never took notice. I never...thought you were by my side. I've been through many hardships in my hard life, and yet you were there to guide me, even though I had no idea you were with me. I thank you for saving me from those suicide attempts long ago. Thank you for letting me discover the true meaning of you and to turn my life around. Thanks to you, I now have a brand-new look on my life. Everything seems...clearer to me now. Today is my 23rd birthday. When I was born, everyone thought I would die. I was kept in the ER due to my small size and for having a damaged lung. Eventually I wound up with a disease called Myasthenia Gravis, and I had many surgeries, as well as many hardships for being "different". During my highschool years, I developed Deppresion, and earlier in March of this year, I now have Anemia. I never thought I would live myself to see my 23rd birthday, I wanted to kill myself so badly. I hated feeling so weak, so helpless, always dependent on someone. Mom says that it was you who was in my spirit, keeping it strong, so I could survive. I kinda believed her, but I shrugged it off. Now, I truly believe her. My grandma's been very ill in the hospital. Thanks to you, she can walk again. Mom was rumored to have The Big C. Her being a diabetic as well, Mom was so very sick, and I was forgetting my studies to take care of her. Somehow during those nights that I would stay up to watch her sleep, I felt you holding me, giving me the strength to go through and telling me everything was going to be OK. Thanks to you, Mom feels a whole lot better, and turns out it wasn't The Big C after all, but just heartburn (although different in a non-diabetic). Now, I worry less about her and I can focus more on my studies as well as myself. I really thank you for saving my life when I was born, because today, I get to go have a birthday dinner with my Grandma, Mom and my brother at the Olive Garden. Then, on Friday, I get to have another birthday dinner at Carrows with my entire family! I thank you for letting me realize how important family can be to a person. Also, thanks to you, I've found love. True love!
I can't thank you enough for everything you have brought to my life and how happy my family will be knowing that I can live another day and have many more birthdays.
Thank you for keeping me strong. Thank you for watching over my family and I.
I'm very lucky to be living as I am now, and I'm thankful for everything you've blessed me with over these past years of my little life.
Thank you for everything you've done for me, Amida Buddha. I love you forever.
Love, Lucy.
Dear Amida Buddha,
I thank you for the gifts you brought to me in my life, unexpectedly. I thank you for watching over my family members and friends. I thank you for helping me cope with my recent deaths of loved ones. You've nurtured me and watched over me, but I never took notice. I never...thought you were by my side. I've been through many hardships in my hard life, and yet you were there to guide me, even though I had no idea you were with me. I thank you for saving me from those suicide attempts long ago. Thank you for letting me discover the true meaning of you and to turn my life around. Thanks to you, I now have a brand-new look on my life. Everything seems...clearer to me now. Today is my 23rd birthday. When I was born, everyone thought I would die. I was kept in the ER due to my small size and for having a damaged lung. Eventually I wound up with a disease called Myasthenia Gravis, and I had many surgeries, as well as many hardships for being "different". During my highschool years, I developed Deppresion, and earlier in March of this year, I now have Anemia. I never thought I would live myself to see my 23rd birthday, I wanted to kill myself so badly. I hated feeling so weak, so helpless, always dependent on someone. Mom says that it was you who was in my spirit, keeping it strong, so I could survive. I kinda believed her, but I shrugged it off. Now, I truly believe her. My grandma's been very ill in the hospital. Thanks to you, she can walk again. Mom was rumored to have The Big C. Her being a diabetic as well, Mom was so very sick, and I was forgetting my studies to take care of her. Somehow during those nights that I would stay up to watch her sleep, I felt you holding me, giving me the strength to go through and telling me everything was going to be OK. Thanks to you, Mom feels a whole lot better, and turns out it wasn't The Big C after all, but just heartburn (although different in a non-diabetic). Now, I worry less about her and I can focus more on my studies as well as myself. I really thank you for saving my life when I was born, because today, I get to go have a birthday dinner with my Grandma, Mom and my brother at the Olive Garden. Then, on Friday, I get to have another birthday dinner at Carrows with my entire family! I thank you for letting me realize how important family can be to a person. Also, thanks to you, I've found love. True love!
I can't thank you enough for everything you have brought to my life and how happy my family will be knowing that I can live another day and have many more birthdays.
Thank you for keeping me strong. Thank you for watching over my family and I.
I'm very lucky to be living as I am now, and I'm thankful for everything you've blessed me with over these past years of my little life.
Thank you for everything you've done for me, Amida Buddha. I love you forever.
Love, Lucy.